bad decision dinosaur grad school

That title has nothing to do with the post; it’s just one of the search terms that led to my blog that I find particularly amusing.
I had nightmares last night. I was being stalked by someone who kept finding me no matter where I went, and he would hit me and push me around. It [...]

fat

fatty fat.

trains, pains, and traveling pants

I am in Kansas until Friday, visiting my nephew, sister, and brother in law. I took the train. I edited part of a play manuscript, read some of John Gardner’s book for young novelists, and listened to a lot of Dan Savage’s lovecasts. It was strange to leave from Union Station, because I hadn’t been [...]

what’s happening, currently

Last night I dreamt about hugging cute boys. And playing Beatles Rock Band with them.
Many things are happening, and I am trying to manage them without losing my mind. I have a second appointment with my new therapist lined up. I will soon be calling in-network psychiatrists for my medicines. I’m really looking forward to [...]

today’s mood:

Fuck you, Life! Fuck you, Job! FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU!

one out of one therapists agree

My new therapist heartily agreed that xb is/was/is a manipulative, delusional asshole who needs to stay the fuck away from me.
Also, the security guard for her building commented on my resemblance to Christina Ricci. I am always amused when people notice that.

doctor, doctor

I begin seeing my new in-network therapist tomorrow. I am ever so excited. Gee, I sure am tired of being mentally ill. It’s not fun like you see in the movies.

FOR FUCK’S SAKE

xb emailed my friend’s husband, to whine about how he (xb) needed to be able to be friends with my friend’s husband so xb’s career could flourish. Or something to that effect. The point is HE EMAILED MY FRIEND.
I’m a fucking crazy bitch, and even I have managed to not email any of his exclusive [...]

shut. the fuck. up. you fucker.

Ugh. So much idiotic drama going on. xb has once again reared his stupid-ass head. He friended by best and oldest friend in Chicago on Facebook recently, and I had a panic attack after seeing his face below a post of hers that he’d commented on (it doesn’t help that his profile picture is from [...]

still here.

Everything is still pretty fucked up. Although I did get two of my student loans to give me a hardship deferment. And a friend is going to lend me the $380 I need to keep my car from getting booted. Oh, how did things get so out of control? I blame bank fees, and taking [...]