trains, pains, and traveling pants

I am in Kansas until Friday, visiting my nephew, sister, and brother in law. I took the train. I edited part of a play manuscript, read some of John Gardner’s book for young novelists, and listened to a lot of Dan Savage’s lovecasts. It was strange to leave from Union Station, because I hadn’t been [...]

shut. the fuck. up. you fucker.

Ugh. So much idiotic drama going on. xb has once again reared his stupid-ass head. He friended by best and oldest friend in Chicago on Facebook recently, and I had a panic attack after seeing his face below a post of hers that he’d commented on (it doesn’t help that his profile picture is from [...]

mother

Two years ago this June my mother died. I was in the midst of a terrible break-up with a man I was living with and whom I loved very much. When my brother called at 6:30 a.m. the morning she died, I was devastated. I remember that it felt like I cried unendingly for the [...]

I’m sorry you feel like barfing.

“I hope you feel better soon.”
That was the message that xb sent me in reply to my g-chat status that read “feel like barfing”. I replied that it wasn’t serious; I only felt like barfing because my coworker had sprayed the phone with lysol and that the smell of lysol turns my stomach. He wrote [...]

anxiety.

For the past couple of weeks I have been plagued by anxiety dreams. Most of them involve some variation of packing and moving. It’s really horrific. I wake up in a terrible panic, wondering why in the hell I was moving again so soon. I am not exactly sure where this anxiety is coming from, [...]

the letter I just sent to Seth, which made me cry.

No, I’m not that well, but thanks for your polite and civil inquiry. The utter thoroughness with which you’ve cut me out of your life is quite impressive, and surprising. I have been thinking alot about your narrow definition of what be-all end-all capital L love is. That you’ve limited such an expansive emotion with [...]

boundaries

I’ve always struggled with boundary issues. In college I had a roommate that I had unhealthy boundaries with. I would become intensely upset if she missed meetings that we both attended, or if I sensed that she was becoming closer to someone other than me.
When Zer0 and I lived together in 2001, I had the [...]

movie fail

I tried to go see a movie with my friend T – bone, but every movie we tried to see was sold out (we tried three different movies at two different theaters). This did not seem to bode well for socializing, so I decided to just go home and watch the movie I had from [...]

16 Random Things

The meme thing. I believe yall know how it works. If you read this, consider yourself tagged. If you reciprocate, please link to your post in the comments for me so I can enjoy your disclosure.
1. I have twice dated married men. (bonus: Both times it was revealed to me in murky terminology. I regret [...]

i don’t like snow!

It sure is pretty and all, but I surely do hate driving in it.
I finally gave Seth his present on Saturday, and he was very pleased. We hung out Saturday night after eating Thai food. I listened to David Cross albums while he did some graphic design work for a friend. Before we fell asleep [...]