floating

I’ve been busy, but not busy. I’ve been sleeping poorly.  It takes me a long time to fall asleep, and then when I do fall asleep, I have nightmares.
I tapered down my meds myself because I couldn’t find a decent psychiatrist. My emotions have been noticeably more raw lately, but I have been holding myself [...]

bad decision dinosaur grad school

That title has nothing to do with the post; it’s just one of the search terms that led to my blog that I find particularly amusing.
I had nightmares last night. I was being stalked by someone who kept finding me no matter where I went, and he would hit me and push me around. It [...]

trains, pains, and traveling pants

I am in Kansas until Friday, visiting my nephew, sister, and brother in law. I took the train. I edited part of a play manuscript, read some of John Gardner’s book for young novelists, and listened to a lot of Dan Savage’s lovecasts. It was strange to leave from Union Station, because I hadn’t been [...]

what’s happening, currently

Last night I dreamt about hugging cute boys. And playing Beatles Rock Band with them.
Many things are happening, and I am trying to manage them without losing my mind. I have a second appointment with my new therapist lined up. I will soon be calling in-network psychiatrists for my medicines. I’m really looking forward to [...]

anxiety.

For the past couple of weeks I have been plagued by anxiety dreams. Most of them involve some variation of packing and moving. It’s really horrific. I wake up in a terrible panic, wondering why in the hell I was moving again so soon. I am not exactly sure where this anxiety is coming from, [...]

rainy day list of randomosity

I have been dropping things lately. I wonder if I have some sort of brain/nerve issue.
I have dreamed about cheese two nights in a row. I plan on buying some cheese tomorrow after my paycheck is deposited.
The Professor signed an email “xoxo.” I think that is just about the cutest thing I’ve seen [...]

naked parachute

I had a dream last night that I was acting in a play, and one of our warm-up exercises involved the entire cast doing leg kicks naked while shrouded underneath a purple silk parachute.

snow day

I took a snow day today, and slept in, and was duly punished by my brain. Let me tell you about the dream I had.
I dreamt that Seth and I had moved in together. All was nice and cozy, until one night I called to see when he’d be home, and somehow I knew he [...]

quit it, brain.

The past two nights I’ve had dreams wherein Seth told me “I love you.”
Screw you, subconscious.

have I managed to catch on yet? or, loomings

You be the judge: A November post, from 2005.
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It is a good afternoon for the opening of Moby Dick:
Call me Ishmael. Some years ago – never mind how long precisely – having little or no money in my purse, and nothing particular to interest me on shore, I thought I would sail [...]