mother

Two years ago this June my mother died. I was in the midst of a terrible break-up with a man I was living with and whom I loved very much. When my brother called at 6:30 a.m. the morning she died, I was devastated. I remember that it felt like I cried unendingly for the [...]

tagged

I’ve never been tagged before. Here ya go.
25 things

I am an extremely slow shopper at times. I can lollygag around Target for hours, staring at things, picking things up and putting them down again, and dithering over whether or not I should buy something. I usually forget to pick up the things I actually need.
I [...]

boundaries

I’ve always struggled with boundary issues. In college I had a roommate that I had unhealthy boundaries with. I would become intensely upset if she missed meetings that we both attended, or if I sensed that she was becoming closer to someone other than me.
When Zer0 and I lived together in 2001, I had the [...]

misty watercolor memories and shit

I’ve been following the blog of a woman who was recently diagnosed as bi-polar. Today she returned from a stint in the psychiatric hospital. It reminded me of the time xb told me about an ex of his that he had never gotten over. She’d tried to commit suicide, and spent time in a psych [...]

holding on

I am off work today since I work on Saturday and Sunday, and I am enjoying a Battlestar marathon while I clean my apartment. My apartment is a pit. I will have to wash around three sinkfuls of dishes. I may sort laundry, but it will certainly not get washed today, unless I do just [...]

smashypants

A fairly nice post from my archives, about a boy I once kissed alot one drunken summer.

movie fail

I tried to go see a movie with my friend T – bone, but every movie we tried to see was sold out (we tried three different movies at two different theaters). This did not seem to bode well for socializing, so I decided to just go home and watch the movie I had from [...]

16 Random Things

The meme thing. I believe yall know how it works. If you read this, consider yourself tagged. If you reciprocate, please link to your post in the comments for me so I can enjoy your disclosure.
1. I have twice dated married men. (bonus: Both times it was revealed to me in murky terminology. I regret [...]

thanks

This is my second Thanksgiving without my mother, and I miss her. I cooked dinner for my two brothers today and it was nice, but melancholy as well. We don’t really have much to talk about. My youngest brother is socially isolated and doesn’t really do much, while my other brother has special needs- he [...]

have I managed to catch on yet? or, loomings

You be the judge: A November post, from 2005.
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It is a good afternoon for the opening of Moby Dick:
Call me Ishmael. Some years ago – never mind how long precisely – having little or no money in my purse, and nothing particular to interest me on shore, I thought I would sail [...]