bad decision dinosaur grad school

That title has nothing to do with the post; it’s just one of the search terms that led to my blog that I find particularly amusing.
I had nightmares last night. I was being stalked by someone who kept finding me no matter where I went, and he would hit me and push me around. It [...]

trains, pains, and traveling pants

I am in Kansas until Friday, visiting my nephew, sister, and brother in law. I took the train. I edited part of a play manuscript, read some of John Gardner’s book for young novelists, and listened to a lot of Dan Savage’s lovecasts. It was strange to leave from Union Station, because I hadn’t been [...]

shut. the fuck. up. you fucker.

Ugh. So much idiotic drama going on. xb has once again reared his stupid-ass head. He friended by best and oldest friend in Chicago on Facebook recently, and I had a panic attack after seeing his face below a post of hers that he’d commented on (it doesn’t help that his profile picture is from [...]

still here.

Everything is still pretty fucked up. Although I did get two of my student loans to give me a hardship deferment. And a friend is going to lend me the $380 I need to keep my car from getting booted. Oh, how did things get so out of control? I blame bank fees, and taking [...]

mania, of the anxious kind

This is a panicked letter I sent to my sister. It’s a prime example of the anxiety I’ve been feeling lately, and the sort of deep shit you can get yourself into when one of the symptoms of your mania is careless spending sprees. Such sprees aren’t always big ticket items; often it’s just an [...]

neither of us is capable of being a commander

I wish that your love for me was enough to make you want to be a better man. I also wish that my love for you was strong enough to help you be that better man, but these days it’s all I can do to love myself. I want to be with a man who [...]

oh, ok

Saw my doctor and my meds were adjusted; I am feeling much less punchy stabby shouty than I was for a while there. Still don’t have the attention span to write a real post, though. Maybe in a couple of more days.
I fucking hate “Drop Dead Diva” on fucking lifetime. Fuck you, women’s television networks. [...]

oy! librarian in crisis!

I am a children’s librarian in the midst of SUMMER READING! Which means, oh, my god, I am losing my mind. I am swarmed by children most of the day, signing them up for the program, explaining how the program works, etc and so forth.
I do have several tales to tell, though: Sideburns and his [...]

i feel like a fucking cymbalta commercial

I was in my car and pulling out of my parking spot when I decided to call in to work. I pulled up a little bit, into a spot where my car wouldn’t get shit on quite so much, and then called my boss.
I need to go pick up a prescription. Last night I took [...]

Sideburns

10:47 PM SIDEBURNS: you [your turn at scrabble]
10:51 PM IRIS: your turn
can I ask you an awkward personal question that you can totally decline to answer if you don’t want to?
10:54 PM SIDEBURNS: um
10:55 PM about 6 inches.
give or take.
IRIS: good to know, but that wasn’t my question.

hm, that might have been the wrong [...]